As a neurodivergent pastor, I have always felt a deep sense of call to serve God and to care for those around me. However, my journey as a minister has not been without its challenges, particularly as I navigate the complexities of living with OCD and PTSD.
On the one hand, my neurodivergent perspective has given me a unique perspective on pastoral care. I am acutely attuned to the needs of others, and I am often able to offer insights and support that others may not be able to see. I am deeply committed to creating safe, welcoming spaces for all people, regardless of their background or beliefs.
However, my OCD and PTSD have also presented significant challenges to my ministry. Both conditions can be triggered by stress and anxiety, which are unfortunately all too common in pastoral work. For example, I may experience intrusive thoughts that make it difficult for me to focus on preaching or leading a worship service. I may also struggle with sensory overload, which can make it challenging for me to connect with others in the ways that I would like.
These challenges can be frustrating and disheartening, but they have also taught me a great deal about the nature of pastoral care. I have learned that sometimes, the most powerful forms of care are those that are rooted in vulnerability and honesty. By sharing my struggles with others, I have been able to build deeper connections with members of my congregation and to create a more authentic sense of community.
I have also come to understand the importance of self-care as a vital component of pastoral ministry. For me, this may involve taking breaks to engage in calming activities like walking, practicing mindfulness, or spending time with my family. It may also involve seeking professional support when necessary, whether through therapy or medication.
Ultimately, my journey as a neurodivergent pastor has taught me that God works in mysterious ways. My experiences with OCD and PTSD have not always been easy, but they have given me a deeper appreciation for the complexities of the human experience and a greater sense of compassion for those who are struggling. I am grateful for the opportunity to serve God in this capacity, and I pray that my ministry will continue to bring healing and hope to all those I encounter.
As someone who is also neurodivergent, (OCD and PTSD like you, but autistic as well) I really appreciate you making a post about it, especially in relation to your pastoral work and faith. I know the struggles, especially when it comes to such complicated subject matter. A lot of people refuse to talk about their neurodivergence, especially adults in today’s society. I think you’re an incredibly strong person, and an amazing pastor.
I was diagnosed at 39 with ADHD… what a tremendous shock! I went through the many stages of grief, mostly for the child/teen/young adult who never felt whole and always felt misunderstood. As you say, though, I see this as a gift that affords me a unique perspective and heightened ability to empathically understand people and their own circumstances.
Such a gift is heavy-laden. Sensory overload is a huge boundary that I fail to see until its too late at times. Being honest with others while showing myself grace has brought me closer to others as well as my own authenticity.
Thank you for being open about your own ups and downs and workarounds! Knowledge is power! I hope your stories will continue to inspire and empower many others!